Surf the Urge
I just got off the phone with two of my dearest friends. Each call lasted nearly an hour and had the same theme. They were depressed, on edge, and one step away from hurling themselves out of their respective office windows. I became concerned and probed deeper, asking pointed questions about sleep disturbances […]
I’ve been drowning in bad flashbacks from the yester-years of work and current interactions.
It all began last night when I went to the wake of a colleague’s father. Very glad to show my support and condolences to my colleague but more difficult than I anticipated to ride in a mini-van full of […]
Boring and uninspired topic I know. I am too exhausted after work to write about something else and yet here I am awake again in the middle of the night. Can’t even blame my waking on Quinn. Something is out of whack–definitely not feeling the whole work-life balance thing.
TGIF. I promise […]
I want to say that work is going well. Still plenty of problems to solve, work to do, ways to be useful… I am taken aback by the sheer volume of issues to address though. Any one task would pose an interesting challenge. They are coming at me at an increasingly fast […]
First the good parts:
Came back to work full-time yesterday and morning routine went beautifully. Kids up early, husband packed lunches and fed them breakfast, childcare provider on time and connected wonderfully with baby Quinn, wonderfully warm welcome back at work complete with huge beautiful bouquet of flowers.
Day presented itself with many problems, […]
Despite what I’ve said about being ready to go back to work, today has been filled with moments of anxiety. Not one thing in particular–nothing I could attack and solve–just free-floating. However, I was flipping through the journal I’ve kept since Quinn’s birth and took pause when I read the following:
10/27/07 Maternity leave […]
If ever one wanted to make returning to work feel like a good thing, having 5 days and nights with all 3 children home, no school, no help, and not enough sleep is a great start. That is the situation I am currently coming off of. Genius timing on my boss’s part–I will […]
I can stand it empowers you to withstand anything without changing anything. You know that this will pass and you don’t have to escape or obliterate anything for your emotional equilibrium. Telling yourself that you can’t stand something confines your options by prodding you to react.
When you find yourself unable or unwilling to be totally in the present, when you are counting the seconds to bed time, when a paralyzed look of dread and angst takes over your face for the last two hours of the day, remind yourself, you’re not Buddha (although you do have Buddha nature within you). […]
Here’s an example of how it might work. You’ve asked your children to pick up the mess in the living room. Then you ask again. Instead of finding an industrious, cooperative agent of good, you find a surly eight year old who rails that you aren’t the boss of him. Rather than launching into a […]
