I have to consciously resist the pull for drama practically every moment at my job. Someone is misunderstanding someone else at every turn and feeling simultaneously paranoid and indignant at each perceived slight. Personally, I have to keep reciting “kill ‘em with kindness” as if I’m warding off spirits.

Complicating matters is the fact that I can’t stop laughing hysterically due to severe sleep deprivation. I’ve been awake since 2:30 am this morning. Fed Quinn, then he fell back to sleep but I’ve been up ever since. A colleague noted that I seemed to have a case of the “giggles” to which I said it was better than “bitter, dark thoughts about hating to work” after which I burst into laugter.

I also called my husband to see if he could come home because it is sleeting out. He said “it’s not like I’m working outside, I’m in a building”. When I warned of the icy streets he said, “I have to walk a block. I’m not 70 and likely to break a hip”. This conversation had me laughing so hard I could hardly breathe. In fact, someone poked their head in my office to see why I was gasping for air. I’m embarassed but there is also something so liberating about laughing and laughing…

Drama, laughter, exhaustion….clearly not doing my best thinking or work here today. Diane